Surreal.

Nothing can describe my happiness & the mood that im at right now. My hardwork really pays off. I am so thankful for all my close friends who's been with me through the past few days, comforting & supporting me. I feel like a cry baby yesterday. Sorry for making you guys worry for me. I am glad first year is done & im proceeding to second year. Everything seems so surreal & fast-forwarding. I hope it will be another smooth-sailing. Take care everyone (:


Loves,
kate

This is it.

Today is the day. The day i received my results at 8pm. You know i just can't fucking sit down and relaz treating nothing has happen. I need to face it alone later. Nobody's by my side for the first time. You know, ive never checked my results myself. I know im timid & not courageous enough. That's just me. I just can't change myself. After today, i believe im gonna break down. Thinking about it, i don't know who i should confide to. I just need someone to hear my sorrows. But im really glad 3 of my best friends called/text me. However, whos gonna be by my side? I am feeling emotional and stress right now. Its never been like this before. Can't believe im shedding my tears while typing this. I know after sleeping, its gonna be a new day. However everythings gonna change my whole life. Totally tarnish my life. How i wish there's a bottle of sleeping pills right beside me and i'll just sleep forever without knowing it.


Loves,
Kate

Post exam syndrome

I know now worrying at this time is pointless. Clock is ticking away and im only left till a week that my world is gonna end. I know myself that i did badly for my exams, which is i think is worse than prelims. People around me kept saying i'll pass or i do not have to worry so much. Basically im the one that does the exams so im the only one that know how well i did the exams. People comforting me is like pointless. I believe that i'll breakout on that day. I even took leave on that day just to avoid having emotions showing in the office. And i believe that my cousin/uncle will pour cold water on me if my results are bad. I am still unprepared for the consequences after the exam results. What am i going to do? Kept having nightmares about my exams. They say dreams always turns opposite. I don't even believe such shits. I know script are being marked, my destiny cannot be changed. I just have to walk straight and face it. It is just that i am too timid to walk alone. I know my parents will disappointed in me if i did badly for it. The point is, i have to pay for the modules & retake again, wasting my money and time. I really want to graduate within 3 years and get a good job to support my parents. Thats all i can wish for. Is my wish too big to be granted? I need someone to guide me in my future. I don't even know what im doing or what i wanna do in the future. I am 21 going 22 yet im being selfless and hopeless. I shouldn't be born into this world in the first place. No motivations or goals or dreams. I am just studying/working for the sake of living. Im glad i have wonderful parents. But they have a disappointing daughter in return. I am so sorry.

Loves,
Kate

YOU-HOO~

I am back to blogging! Cause i finished my prelims last friday. And im gonna take a break! You thought im already enjoying my holidays? Nah...Worse yet to come. I got a major exams in start of May. Need to be serious in that though. Can't afford to fail any subjects. Well, i did really bad for my prelims. As in, results aren't back but i know i didn't do well enough. Kind of forget what i studied when i entered the exam hall. Nervous i guess. Can't afford to do the same mistake. You know once bitten, twice shy. So i've decided to upload the long awaited photos! I just bluetooth-ed all my handphone pictures into my dad's laptop. Fast and easy peasy! And here goes....

Check out this vintage car!! It was parked at the cold storage carpark. Erm..don't buy the car number. LOL. Its only 3 digits. :x

I only took a photo of her when we took the cable car to sentosa. All the photos were taken in her camera though. It was HELLALUVA FUN! Cause all the trips and tickets were free in sentosa. So she invited me over for a day of fun!! I must say we really enjoyed the entire day.

We actually wanted to do something different. So we went to singapore discovery centre. It was quite....unknown yet. Cause i don't see any visitors and its located at joo koon. Can you imagine?! That place is surrounded by factories. But we only spent like less than $15?! We bought tour package & get to tour around with a handsome guide + a 3D movie! I must say, you guys gotta visit there!

Oh the balloons sculpture we got from one of the cute boy. :x

Inside the "museum".

We also managed to tour around the army places too. (: Everything is included in the package.

Celebrated sarinah's birthday (the one in pink). Devi and i actually surprised her by blindfolding her & trick her into botanic garden. We even hide her birthday present behind the bushes! It was insane! It even rain on that day! Luckily we were already running towards the bus stop.

Mum's birthday.

I actually bought this from Fruit Paradise. It was delicious! My parents loved it alot!! So i have been buying slices back home whenever i visit town. :D

More to come~ Next post will be foods adventures! Take care everyone!

Loves,

Kate

FOSSIL♥

I was checking out for watches. I realised women's edition isn't that nice. Or maybe should i say too elegant? Lol. Above are men's edition. Im deciding between these two. Isn't it beautiful? Especially the mechanics and details inside. Im thinking if i should get it for my birthday this year. Maybe advanced birthday present. LOL!! Okay im just bored. I should be studying for my prelims which is starting in 7hrs. And i should be sleeping instead of surfing net. :x Nights everyone!

p/s: give me your opinions on these two watches! (:


Loves,
kate